I've Been Thinking...

This is a post I've been wanting to write for a long time now but just couldn't find the words or thought it wasn't good timing. Lately, I've been speaking to a lot of people who are feeling similar to me so I thought now is a better time than any to discuss whats been on my mind.

I graduated University a couple of years ago, if you'd have asked me then where would I see myself at 24 I would have gave a completely different answer to what the reality is. I always knew it would be hard to get started with a career but I took opportunities that were offered to me which I thought would help. In a matter of fact they have probably left me more confused than ever. If you were to ask me today where would I see myself in 5 years, well, that question would probably leave me an anxious, sweaty mess. Just the thought of it makes my heart beat faster. I don't know whether this could be down to the job rejections I have faced. I am grateful for the job that I do have, even though it isn't what I saw myself doing or in fact what I want to do, I guess its better than nothing. I do feel I am sometimes just waiting for life to start and that I should realise it has started and I should stop 'wasting' time waiting for something to happen.

"Everyone's path is different." Can't tell you how many times I've been told this. Or any other cliches about not comparing your lives to others. I do believe this and it is somewhat comforting. But do you ever wonder when your path will begin and not be stuck at the 'stop' sign? I know that at 24 your not supposed to have it all figured out, I somewhat blame social media for making it seem like we should. People only post what they want to, right? I have however very recently witnessed that most people use filters for their lives. By only posting and sharing the happy and successful parts of live they hide the rest of it. Most of those happy, almost bragging posts/pictures are staged and in fact not even in the slightest a true representation of life at that moment. If you find yourself a little envious of that person on instagram or blog who's life looks perfect. Take a second to think, that is just one snapshot that they have taken to share with you. If you look behind the camera they are using to take that selfie you'll see life is very different. I hope that makes sense. Basically if you find yourself, like I did starting to compare your life to others. I urge you to step away, do something like read a book or go outside and breathe, you'll feel better.

I sometimes find myself really struggling with anxiety and my thoughts sometimes get the better of me. Talking about it really helps, even when you don't want to. Or even writing things down. Actually, even as I type this post it is somewhat therapeutic. I'm not sure if anyone will read this let alone think it's helpful in any way but if you do I'd love to know some of your thoughts. Or if your a graduate, I'd love to know how things are going post University.


  1. It is tempting as a child to imagine our future as a series of steps. Work hard get into Uni get a degree get a great job be successful be happy! The truth is that it is very rare that everything goes exactly to plan. All we can do is take each day as it comes, do our best to shine and take our happiness where we can.


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